let go let God

It looks like this year is going to be a welcome for the New Year. The PM has announced that all New Year Festivities should be canceled and we should come together and pray. Again, PM Abdullah Badawi should be commented for instilling into Malaysian humanity and the sense of God fearing. If only PM Abdullah Badawi was a Christian, I'm sure he would have done major exploits for God.

This week is officially my last week of work in the present company of mine. Next month onwards I'll be entering into a phase of uncertainties and it does scare me a whole lot now that I think of it. I'll be jobless next month and will be preparing for my departure. It's scary because giving up a rather high paying job and entering into the student world again right at the point when your career is just about to launch to the next level is not something that everyone can do, especially when I don't have parents that earns as much as Tan Sri Francis Yeoh.. It scares me because I'm giving up my comfort zone for the last 4 years. I guess there comes a point in life where you actually have to let go and let God support you. This is a true test of faith. God has provided for me a lot of in the last 4 years, I thank God for 2 good steady income work over the last 4 years. Now it's time for me to move on to a new level of faith in God.

I've been in this present company for the last 2 years and this is the company that made me realised my self worth and showed me a career that I could be good at. This was the company that help make Senior Management of big corporation to have respect for me as a consultant and I thank God that he landed me in this company. It's sad that in the next week when I leave, this company is not the same majestic company when I first joint. Some how a long the way, my MD made some wrong choices and still in the state of self-denial that this present company of mine has gone from a well respected company to a nobody. I just thank God that my respect with my clients has still stayed intack. It has stayed intack till some of my existing clients don't belive that I'm going overseas to study. They think that I'm joining another company and that I'm being professional by just giving the ever standard diplomatic answer "I'm furthering my studies". My clients has express that they will sign up new contracts with the company that I joined. I really thank God that he has helped me built this kind of respect among my clients and I am going to miss that. Because you all know that once you're out of the corporate world, people will not look up to you anymore. I guess I have been finding comfort in that that people respect me to a certain extent more than my MD and most definately Hobs. But I see it as God teaching me to rely on him and not on man. The term pull strings really exist in this dog eat dog world. I must admit that giving all this up is not as easy as I thought it would be. But like I said I guess I have to let go and let God in order for His plans to come through for me.