captain's first log

My very first entry for the year. What better time to do than right after my birthday. It's been a roller-coster ride over the last few weeks. Adjusting to the fact that I'm unemployed and facing the fact the my day of departure to the land of the unknown called Bible College coming closer and closer. Have been feeling a wee bit emo about my departure. I just sometimes wished that something bad happens now and that will "motivate" me more to want to leave Malaysia but I guess that's a wrong way to face life. I've always been preaching to people about getting out of their shell and expand yourself but I can't seem to be practicing what I'm preaching.

I finally received my letter of acceptance from Paradise College so I guess I'm really on my way now. 7 months ago if someone asked me whether I'll consider doing full time bible college, I'll tell the person "Are you nutZ???", guess God really has his way when he deals with you. I can't deny the fact that I'm very excited of what is to come for me in this year is Paradise and off course staying with the Chong brothers, I'm also sad to leave home, sad to leave the family again, friends and all, but it's through moving on that we're about to move on one more level up. I'm also sad to leave at such exciting times, YC is happening, the effects of camp is still strong in service, certain parts of my life which were mundane last year seems to be picking up and going the way I want... so it's sad to leave because you're leaving behind a "What could have been??"

Alright, enough emotional crap.... I want to thank everyone who called me to wish me on my birthday, came and shook my hands, posted fantabulous dedication on their blogs (eps to Terry, Darren..I never I thought I made any difference..seriously!! and yes Ian for clearing my room for me), smsed me.

I thank God for bringing me this far in life. I thank God that He helped me achieved a lot and more than an average 26 year old. The only area I know I've not achieved as an average 26 year old is in the area of relationship but I'm not that bothered about it. Friends around seems more worried. Whatever it is, I am what I am today if I may say so for myself, successful in my own rights is largely due to my parents because they've sowed a lot into me. The endless support shown by my dad and mom. I'm thankful for a dad who is so proud of his son even when his achievement is so small at times to a point I have to tell him, "can you not be proud of me for once??" I thank God for a dad who's so proud of his son and I hope I can continue to make him proud. I thank God for a mom who never fails to point me on track. I could not have asked for a better best friend than my mom.

To all those gorgeuos babes out there who share the same birth month as me, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, WE ARE THE ROCKERS: Saw Gaik, Heng Ian, Serena, Jan Faye, Dalwin, Chris Chan (who shares the same birthdate, we rock doubly more), Kevin faRaj, Darren Ong, Marcel Gan, Rosaleen, Planta (Majorie), Marlene, Hera