A New Beginning

Finally my first post of the year. It's late I know, but thought since it's late may as well make it after my birthday. Want to thank all who wished me in leaders retreat, called me, sms me, etc. Thanks very much.. I really appreciate it.

A brief reflection on 2005, it was really a tough year; not working and having to support myself through 1 year of Bible Colloge. It was also a year that God thought me a lot and it was a break of breaking and remolding. I learned the true meaning of servanthood and humility. I can say I learned but still finding it hard to implement everything I learned. Learning is one thing, but 2005 was also a year that I took one step back in my character, personality and maturity. I know last year was a year that I took a step back in terms of my temper and patience. As my close friends would know that I have a short temper and I have been working on it for the last few years and it was going quite well until last year where I really took a step back. I know I've hurt quite a few people last year through my tongue lashing, through the way I treated people when I was angry by slamming the door at certain people. I just hope that these people will come to forgive as I am really sorry for my actions. I guess the adjustments to staying with people took it's toll and the months when I was cash strap did take its toll too. But that doesn't post as excuse.

It was certainly a year too that I learned a lot on the Bible and my spiritual life was enriched. I just hope that 2006 will be a year that I can put to practice the new Christian values that I have learned

Looking on, I'm a year older now, 27. Actually a year short of my original original target of getting married. I remember when I started work at 21, my I wanted to start dating at 26 and get married by 28. But I guess God has greater plan for me. I guess I still enjoy my singlehood too much to want to be attached. Once attached I'll have to say good bye to my playboy lifestyle which I don't think I am ready to give it up yet. Anyway, in the area of relationship, I have full trust in God and what more.. my parents are not rushing me which is cool. In fact my parents keep telling me that 35 is the best age to get married. Maybe I should make that my new target.

As the day passes by, I am dreading the day I have to go back to Adelaide. It's not because I hate Adelaide and the people there, but it's because KL is home and when you come home you find it hard to leave home. So my friends from Adelaide who's reading this, I don't hate you all but in fact I do miss you all and I am a bit sad that one friend might not be there anymore as that person might not get a place in University. Hope your letter with super good reason goes through. So yeah... I am really going to miss KL even more this time. I guess I learned to appreciate KL even more this time round. Appreciated the traffic jams, the pack pasar malams and shopping malls, the over crowded mamak stalls, the run down and always breaking down public busses, etc and most of all my dearest friends here. I am going to miss one in particular lar. This friend I thought I nearly lost, but it was me that put unnecessary pressure on this friend that I nearly lost this friend. I think you know who you are lar... you've really been there for me and put up with my stupidity since I came back. Really thanks so much for being so understanding.. really will this person lar as well as all my other friends here. Those that I got to catch up with, I really appreciated those times... I will really treasure those times we went out and talked. Hope that I can finish my rounds of catching up up before I ciao. Overall, you friends in KL really rock lar, your friendship is so much sincere. I've already had my crying moments with my parents, and my mom even approve approve of my not following the leading of God to go back and go back to my old job. Maybe I will consider that.............................

I guess the only few things that I am looking forward to going back this time is, The Maharajah are in Adelaide, more YC chikus, being part of a new pioneering work of setting up Paradise's City Service, 2nd year in Bible College with new college mate Sheena and hanging out with the new friends I made last year. I guess at the end of the day it is the people that makes you feel at home in the place and I do thank God for the friends I have in Adelaide.

Looking forward to a new year and hopefully a new beginning.