life in transit

I sat and pondered couple of weeks back reviewed how has my life been? Last year, my life was like I was on a train platform. Waiting for a train to take me a destination and problem was I didn't know which train to take. So last year was a year of seeking God and wanting to follow His will for my life and many trains went past, not knowing which train to take, affraid to board a train which I thought might head to the destination God wanted me to go. Finally I boarded a train and what a journey that train ride was. It derailed a few times, but some how God put it back on track and the journey on the train continued. Many times I questioned God, did I take the right train? I kept asking God, why is this train travelling so slow? why is this train making so many stops. Without knowing, God was actually teaching me something on board this train. The journey was a valueble lesson in many aspect. When I question God "why is the train travelling so slow", God answers "it has to travel slow because the surroundings can't permit the train to travel fast, to switch tracks the train has to travel slow." Just like my life, I had to slow down and observe my surroundings, taking corners slowly, make a steady climb up a terrain. Each time, I insisted to the train master to speed in this surroundings, the train derails. I realised that I want to travel fast it's because i hate life going at such a slow pace but God wanted me to learn new values in those times, new values like patience, humility, love, etc. And it's only when the train is slow that we can see and feel each bump on the tracks, see every detailed of the surroundings and make wise decisions from there. You see the train master has to determine how fast a train can travel based on its surroundings and that's why it has to slow down and look. So we in life have to slow down and look out for ourselves and observe the surroundings. Make good wise judgement.

In the train, I again questioned God, why must the train make so many stops. God answers "this is not an express train. You can go down the train have stretched and maybe take a look around." And i reflect back on my life and realised that if the train I was on was an express train, many life's experiences I would have missed. Many scenic country towns I would have missed or only enjoyed the view from the window of the train. Each stop the train made, marks new life experiences God has given me, new friends God has brought to me, new talents founds, etc etc. I bagan to understand the mighty power of God how he in His detailed planning for my life chose which station the train should stop. And as I look back, each stop was a new experience to build me to reach the next level.

What is the status of my life now? Either than being single and open, I realised that the train I am on has arrived at a destination. So life is like this, it's like a student who knows that he/she is destined to study medicine in let's say Hong Kong. But when he/she first arrives at Chap Lap Kok airport, he/she will be blur, not know where to go to grab a cab, where's Uni of Hong Kong etc. That's my life now, I've arrived at somewhere but I don't know where and how to get about now from here. I guess I've always prayed for God's will to be done in me, but I only prayed God bring me to where you want me to be but I never continued on that prayer and asked what now after I've arrived? Is this only a transit like how when I travel to Adelaide, I transit in Changi Airport from KLIA before flying to Adelaide. So is this a transit? or is this it? How long is the transit? Most of the time, we ask God how long does it take Him to take us where he wants us to be? But in truth, God has brought us where he wants us to be, we just need to ask God now how do we acclaimatise. We get confused that we're not in God's will because surroundings are unfamilliar. Off course surroundings are unfamiliar, we don't travel to California, USA and know where is route 65 or where know exactly where is Disney World. We have to ask for directions, rent a car, etc. God can only lead but we have to make the initiatives to get accustomed to the environment or we miss the big picture God has installed for us.

I guess I have to start asking for directions or rent a car now before I miss the big picture.