God Given Dreams...

Last Wednesday night in Powergen, Ps Brad Bonhomme was preaching about following your dreams and at the end of the meeting, he passed us all a piece of paper and asked us to write our dreams down, told us not to limit our dreams but to dream big. I took that piece of paper, took out my pen which was tugged deep inside my pocket. I put the pen to the paper and realised that I don't have any dreams...... anymore. I thought so hard, how can one person not have any dreams, I spend almost 5 minutes thinking and came to a realisation that I don't know how to dream anymore. All the dreams I've had, some of them have been realised and some I've accepted the fact that it will never ever come thru. I was very disturbed, how can anyone live without dreams? I asked God, what dreams should I have? It's like someone just living day by day and not bothered about what the future holds for me. I remember I had dreams of being pilot up to when I was 16, it was when the eye doctors declared that I will never have perfect vision that I gave up on that dream. More recently up till last year, I dreamt of being the CEO of a multinational company by 40, but I now I look and see that it might not be in God's plan. So now, I'm stuck wondering.. What is there to dream for now? I have been so lost this year, I have no dreams and no vision for myself. All I am doing is just feeding on the word of God and not know where and what to do with it. I serve where ever I can in church without any focus. Ever since I gave up my career to come down here, I've been constanly seeking and seeking and still found nothing. I didn't dare dream anymore, or maybe the only dream I ever had was still to marry Kristin Kreuk which I know for sure it is actually a fantasy and not a dream. In fact, I seat on my study table and stare outside into the sky, and all my thoughts are full of are fantasies and not dreams. I put it at the back of my head. But still the thought lingering.. what dreams do I have now? 

Sunday, I went for a ministry trip to Kapunda in the Barossa Valley, I worship lead and shared a shord word for the communion. Normal stuff members of a ministry team would do, I thought the worship and communion message I shared was just about alright, but the blessings I got from the church was amazing, in fact I was speechless. I got two words of prophecy from the church. When I heard those words of prophecy, it was as if God planted not one but two dreams inside my heart. The first word of prophecy I got from this 60 year old guy who looks like, talks like, acts like Uncle Remy Loh from FGA, KL. He prophecied over my musical talents saying that it's not the end of my journey yet and spoke specifically in a certain area of music that I will excel in. I won't tell what area of music and let me say that it's an area that I can't imagine myself in because I haven't even quite started in that area of music. That was dream #1. To top of this prophecy by Unc Remy look alike, he came up on stage and unpluged what I was told later was his most treasured guitar because he spent a lot of time and money to do up that guitar. He took that guitar to me and in my mind I was thinking "probably he's coming over and gonna say.. the Lord challenge you to make music now", but how wrong was I, he came up and said this exact words "I've never done this before, but the Lord prompted in me to give you this guitar, you'll do a much better work on this guitar than me". I was dumb struck at the moment and I was speechless and for a good 20 seconds, my mind was in outer space. I could not believe it, I am now a proud owner of a Squire Telecaster with 3 pick-ups. It's amazing, just on thursday I was reading a review on The Star's Audiofile on a Squire Telecaster and told myself that maybe I should get one when I go home, and now God bless me with one. I thought that was all for the day of surprises and new dreams. Dream #2 came during lunch time in the church. One of the church's prominant lady came up to me and said, while Unc Remy look a like was prophecying, she had a word from the Lord for me too, she told me something (which I don't want to reveal here...) that was beyond me and beyond what I could comprehend,  At this point, I nearly dropped my whole bowl of pasta on the floor.

I realised that in the last 3 days, God was bringing me through a process of leaning on him and trusting in Him. When I had no dreams, God is the one that has birthed 2 new dreams in my heart. 2 BIG dreams that are very personal to me. I thank God thank God that when I had no dreams, He crafted out 2 specific dreams for me to hold onto. I am not sure if that was my defining moment or tipping point, but on Sunday 21st of August, God birthed 2 dreams for me to hold dear to my heart. I thank God for that. And He's given me a reminder in that Telecaster to always remind me of this day.

I have some random shots from my trip to Kapunda:  




Welcome to the mining town of Kapunda









The trio in the ministry team to Kapunda (l-r) Mark 10, Mark Franci, Louisa




My reminder of God's dream for me. The Telecaster