growing older.....

I tell you, it is really a drag to use dial-up. But guess I can't complain as it beats having no internet at all. It's just that I have pictures that I want to pose but I can't because it takes too long to up load pictures on photobucket even though you shrink the pictures to micro-mini size. I tell you, this is because we're signing up with a small time ISP. Whatever it is... ADSL 2!!! I hope the long wait pays off.

I was just reflecting today after one of my LG members said this to me last night during LG "Mark... You are OLD!!!". So I reflected.. how does one know that he is actually getting older... so I concluded with this:

1. You start watching teen babes actress of your time like Jeniffer Love Hewitt taking on married roles in movies and series.

2. You start attending childhood friend's wedding. I've already attended 3 and there's 2 more coming and another invitation just arrived yesterday.

3. You see that conversations that you make in mamak sessions with your childhood buddies from school are only about buying properties and investing in stock markets.

4. You hear your highschool geek of a nerd is engage.

5. You see wedding pictures of school friend's on friendster.

6. Lastly... you tend to have bigger, more major worries in life.. like "WHAT'S MY FUTURE???!!!"

And that's what I am going through now...!!! Major decisions after major decisions to make. And it's all related to Life.. if you make the wrong one... you end up with a sucky life. But than how do you choose? It's either you end up as Lim Goh Tong or Tong Sam Pah.

Sometimes, I ask.. why God did you have to let us make so many decisions? We pray "let Your will be done" but than don't hear anything and your heart also doesn't indicate anything.

I've found myself in the last 4 years.. removed from one comfort zone to another. Right after I am comfortable in one... off I go out again from my comfort zone.

I guess, this is one of the only way God can always teach me to trust fully in Him. Guess God knows me best, guess He knows that when I get too comfortable, I'll forget him. And right now... it's another Journey.. another crucial moment!!! Another Life Changing moment!!!!